fire, fire, FIRE!!!!!!!
Oct 31, 2019
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good morning well good afternoon it is
until after two o'clock on Wednesday
afternoon
I completely forgot that because
tomorrow I have a doctor's women at
10:45 or 10:30
sorry 10:30 so I forgot that I was
supposed to go either yesterday or today
and go get my bloodwork done for my
doctor's appointment
and I was sitting there and I was
looking through my calendar and I'm like
oh my gosh I gotta go get my bloodwork
and it's just a walk-in so I am headed
that way
cuz I need to get that done before
tomorrow so we were sitting there
watching Karate Kid I've never sat and
watched that whole movie never of course
I didn't get to finish it this time
either but anyways yeah we were sitting
there watching Karate Kid and we were
just enjoying time with the kiddos and
waiting for Maya Bear to get home and
yeah so it's been a really low-key day I
did not do workout today I took a break
on my bones today but I will get back on
it tomorrow of course but I don't want
to overdo it and hurt myself like I did
last time so I figure if I you know if I
start to feel like my bones are starting
to kind of get a little sore now muscle
there's difference between muscle my bum
if my muscles get sore good $0.17 up I'm
obviously you need something great but
if I am
but if my bones are hurting which is
like in my joints of my knees and stuff
like that and I know that it's not
muscle then I'm gonna take a little
break so I don't overdo it and like I
said hurt by yourself except myself back
you know but and anyways thank you
everybody for all of the support I
really appreciate it you guys it means a
lot to me that you know even though I
feel like I'm failing because I'm not
being able to keep up with like doing
like a 30 minute workout or an hour
workout I have to remind myself Amy you
have to start somewhere and you know if
it's only five minutes six minutes ten
minutes that's you know five six ten
minutes more than you did the day before
or the day prior to that so if you look
at it in that way then it's like yeah
okay I accomplished something I'm you
know I'm doing I'm making it through so
I just keep telling myself it's me it's
okay but anyways so yeah I just wanted
to say thank you to all of the wonderful
support because
are amazing and it makes the world of a
difference when you have support from
people that understand and are being
compassionate to you know the changes
that I am striving to make so yeah and
to the ones that might not understand
that even five minutes is more than what
I was doing you know it's probably oh my
oh my hot dogs gone you know the car
that carries the hot dog I've showed you
guys around on him with quite a few
times the worst that carries the hot dog
I put him on my blog a few times he
doesn't have his hot dog on the car he
has a pirate that it's like a
broken-down half pirate ship with a
skeleton or I don't know Davidson with
Skelton standing up in the boat driving
it anyways maybe it's for Halloween or
something maybe he'll put his hot dog
back up because he's known for the hot
dog hearse literally like he was just
serve hot okay
um it's one way to cause an accident
dude totally went across the street when
it was our green light to go anyways
he literally would serve hot dogs out of
the hearse like he made hot dogs in the
hearse it was like a barbecue type thing
I couldn't tell you if I would really go
for a hot dog hearse but I guess
everybody has their firsts I guess you
could say that is a first but anyways so
yeah that's kind of what's going on
today is just going and getting my blood
work and then I'm gonna come home I'm
not doing anything fantastic or anything
exciting other than just doing that and
coming back but I hope everybody's
having a wonderful Wednesday I heard
some people are actually getting snow
which is really crazy to me I I mean
it's cold here it's 54 but it's also two
o'clock in the afternoon it's been
pretty cold like in the freezing like
freezing temperatures but we I mean it's
a hit-and-miss with us I've been asked
that before like do you guys get a lot
of snow in Oregon and it's a hit and
miss every year is different some years
we get a good amount of snow in other
years we don't get any snow at all so
every year is different so this year I
don't know I mean we're starting out
pretty cold for the season so I mean we
very well could get some snow this year
I kind of hope not because Holly does
have to commute to work which everybody
does I mean you know give or take but
I'm a worrywart and I always believe
something Bad's gonna happen that's just
how I am
so because I believe that you know
something bad can always happen then I
stress so
only totally be okay with not having
snow because only does commute but where
he commutes to is known to have snow
every year so they don't think we're
gonna like get away with not having snow
I just worry about how much snow
especially because lately here the
drivers have been driving crazy like
literally I'm not even joking you this
morning I got up and I was checking like
on Facebook I'm not a part of a group
well I'm a couple I'm part of a couple
groups where like they talk about like
crime that's happened around the city or
accidents or whatever I am not kidding
you just within an hour's worth of time
this morning there was a seven-year-old
that was hit on a bike there was two
separate accidents in two different
areas but all within the same city and
I'm just like what in the world is going
on and like lately there has been
accidents left and right on the freeway
and a lot of them have to do with semi
trucks which is really scary because to
me I always thought well I was always
told that semi drivers are I mean every
everybody can have an accident and I
mean that's why it's called an accident
but I've always been told that semis are
considered good drivers because they
have to go through such amount of
training and they have to be so much
more aware of their surroundings and
stuff like that but lately I am not
kidding you it seems as though every
accident like the ones at least on the
freeway and stuff have had to do with
semis and I'm just like whoa like this
that's not cool you know I mean a semi
up against a car is pretty much you're
gonna tell me that the car is not gonna
come out very good they're they're not
gonna have the high possibilities of
coming out with a great outcome and so
yeah it's been a little bit eerie and
then I was also reading that one of the
Walmart's that I frequent quite often
that there was a couple coming out of
the Walmart and the husband well it
wasn't a couple it was the husband was
oh my god now it looks like there's a
huge fire in front of me whoa straight I
said that almost looks like trees but
right there it's like a huge plume of
smoke so yes I'll just keep you guys
over here you guys can
drive with me today
you know the window
anyways what was I saying
you're a pepper but uh-oh with the
warmer thing
so anyways they come out of Walmart and
I guess the guy was almost carjacked
these people went up and started
punching the old man in the head and
tried to but he did they ended up
getting his cell phone they didn't
succeed in anything else trying to get
it to where you guys can see wow look at
that smoke ahead of us anyways so
they ended up punching the guy in the
head multiple times they didn't achieve
to get his cellphone
like I told Olli I said if I you know if
I was in that position and somebody was
you know I mean if my kids are not in
the car have at my car okay I'm not
gonna lose my life over a car you know I
mean that's just me that's that's the
way I feel now my kids are in the car
we're gonna have a fight and we're gonna
see who comes out alive but you know I
mean if my kids are not in the car then
I would be more opt to stay here you
know have my car I will I'll see you
later you know but I don't know I don't
know all the details to the guy I don't
know if he was fighting them but they
did achieve like I said to get his cell
phone I thought where that fire went
it's on the side of me somewhere but I
don't know but they they did not end up
getting his car because he did put up a
fight but in the midst of it like I said
he ended up getting punched in the head
multiple times so I told all the I'm
like it's just it's not even safe
anymore like you can't even go anywhere
and be safe because it just it doesn't
work that way anymore so it's pretty sad
but anyways yeah and then we're gonna
pass right by where the two accidents
were today the one seven-year-old one
the Occident will be first the spot and
then the second one is a car excuse me a
car was pulling out a Dollar Tree and I
don't know if they like t-boned somebody
I'm not sure exactly what happened but
definitely something happened
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the bye Mart is where the seven-year-old
was hit today and I guess he's in the
hospital fly him how er fly him out to a
hospital I told Ollie I was like that is
one of the main reasons why cuz Maya has
asked me multiple times if he could ride
his bike to school and I'm like nope not
gonna happen because I'm sorry I don't
trust it you know
all it takes is one person to make a
wrong move and there you go you know so
it's no good if you look on the
left-hand side you'll see where the
smoke is coming out I'm still I don't
see it I mean I'm still got to go down
further for my doctors so we may very
well may pass it looks like it could be
like in a residential area
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right here where those people are
crossing are they're walking by the
right hand side that's right or the
oxide I mean see right there it's on the
ground
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and are you kidding me told you guys
it's been nerds are you guys gonna let
me over
let me over I got to get over that you
everybody stop into look at them oh it's
history car car accident ouchie no ji
I already been busy that's back there
looks like it's an apartment
McNary oats
that's where the fire is coming out at
so I'm assuming gotta be kind of careful
I wanna take care from touching my phone
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or not
we'll just do it like that about that
okay
so hey that was not bad actually
sometimes I go there and I legit will
sit there waiting to be called back for
like oh is that I do in the yard it
sounded like something was vibrating my
car I'm like what is going on anyways um
so it wasn't that bad
glad I got that done over with so now I
can uh tomorrow she said that he should
have the results by tomorrow so let's
hope that's the case
let me just smack anything
oh okay anyways she said that he should
have the results for tomorrow so it's my
a1c and a vitamin D so we shall see I
had to sign waivers though because I
guess a lot of times insurances don't
want to cover vitamins D and this is a
new insurance for me because now we're
on always private medical insurance
whatever through this company because
when he had his other company when he
owned a got his own company
we paid we paid for insurance
like it was Blue Cross Blue Shield so we
paid for it and then when he got his new
job then his new job offers medical
which is a high plus and actually
doesn't cost much to have it for the
whole family which was to even a better
plus but anyways
he is still fighting on fire
anyways he gets medical through his
insurance or he gets medical through his
work so in return
it's a new medical for me I don't know
exactly what they cover and don't cover
on like testing and stuff so she said
well they may or may not cover it I'm
just like well you know I mean I have to
get the test done so I mean it is what
it is nothing I can do about it man it's
only fifty two dollars what driving
fifty two dollars is a lot of money if
the medical is not going to cover it but
at the same time I have to get my
vitamin D checked so oh goodness
medical stuff never fun but anyway so I
got that crossed off of my to do thing
and now I am going to head home and my
big baby boy should be home from school
here soon
so then I will see how his day went and
yeah we're just chilling at home on my
it's been nice it's been nice so anyways
I know today's vlog is kind of a
funkified vlog because there's just not
really much that is going on right now
but I just wanted a double-double I just
wanted to come on and say hello and send
my love and best wishes for an amazing
Wednesday since it's a midway through
the week which is a nice fill
but anyways I will check in with you
guys maybe a little bit later or I might
just close off my vlog not exactly sure
but I shall see when this evening
happens all righty you guys good evening
um I haven't obviously blogged for quite
a few hours I came home and I helped
Holly make a cake for him and the kids
that was a lot of fun and then because
he makes his cakes scratch by scratch
he makes them scratched however you say
it
he makes them that way and so it was
something cool cuz I've never made a
homemade cake you know so it was really
cool and the cakes that he makes you
don't have to put like frosting and
stuff on him and in fact the kids don't
even like it with frosting so it was
kind of interesting and I've eaten them
before um not now but I did eat them and
they were good before so sure my babies
will love it so for my little I guess
you would say for my little I guess
you'd call sweet I made some sugar-free
hot chocolate and so that's waiting for
me - oh my so I was trying to get all
fancy dance he's trying to get all
spooky ookey on me he's gonna come
around the corner mom anyways I have my
hot chocolate city now trying to chill
off she'll cool off if I can talk
tonight would be great so I can have
that and a little bit and yeah we just
had a low-key day honestly and always
fighting off a really bad cold so of
course that is not helping the situation
and I am trying to stay away from him as
much as possible because I really don't
want to get sick
I really don't so yeah
and anyways yeah that's really all that
happened today we didn't really do
anything so I really wasn't doing
anything to be like log friendly and
like I said earlier I am taking a break
from working out today but I'll pick up
tomorrow and then tomorrow is Halloween
but um my family we don't do anything
for Halloween so we're just gonna stay
home and probably well we always shut
our lights off and just spend that time
together so and it'll be nice cuz all
these can be home with us so that will
be nice we're just gonna watch Toy Story
4 and you know relax and spend time with
the kiddos
oh I'm sorry I'll be out in just a
minute
so anyways and then for dinner tonight
we made that would kind of jump from one
thing to the next so let me finish that
up I am exhausted he writes tomorrow we
are not doing anything for Halloween we
don't do anything for Halloween I have
not done anything for Halloween in years
Maya has celebrated one whole no two
Halloween's in his entire life and I
just I personally don't like wait to
touch it cuz it's hot so I'm pulling it
off yes let it cool off and then I'll
get it for you guys um but anyways so I
don't personally do anything for
Halloween because I it brings back just
a lot of Who feeling so for me I don't
like Halloween never have never will
and so yeah and then for the rest of the
remainder of the evening tonight I had
for dinner I just had tuna and all he
had beans and I don't know something
else beans cheese and beans cheese and I
think that's it
then butthis or like Egyptian beans and
then he also made this thing where he
cuts up the onion and puts like it in
like not a vinaigrette but kind of like
a big I don't know how to describe it
but oh my gosh yeah I love it
so I had some cut-up raw onion and tuna
and that was my dinner
so anyways it was a boring day I promise
it really wasn't very fun there was
nothing that was happening but yeah so
tomorrow um I don't know exactly what
all we have planned I do know we need to
go to Walmart and pick up something Oh
heavy cream so we'll go to Walmart
tomorrow and then I have an appointment
at 10:30 and the morning with my doctor
to go over my blood results and then I
think tomorrow is also a med check so
we'll go over like my anxiety meds and
my depression meds my blood pressure
meds my migraine meds and see where I'm
at with everything so yeah I think the
only one that I feel like I kind of need
to have adjusted a little bit as my
anxiety meds I will say that I feel like
I'm been a lot more on edge and a lot
more antsy and the anxiety meds
stabilize my mood as well so with that
my mood has been kind of all over the
place but again it could be to that I
just got the IUD so my body being like
hormonal trying to like adjust
everything it could also be throwing me
it completely off so he may not want to
do anything at first and just kind of
let it go for the next couple of months
and see where I go but we'll see I mean
I'm under a lot of different eyes so
it's not like I'm just like sitting
without having you know I have my
therapist watching I have my doctor
watching I've got you know all of the
above watching so yeah anyways well I
think I'm just gonna close my vlog here
I just wanted to come in and say
goodnight and
no let you guys know that everything is
good I think tonight because I have
absolutely no idea where my kids put my
selfie stick and so I haven't been able
to do daily vlogging at all because I
don't have a stick so I'm hoping to
possibly be able to do that tonight I'm
will see if I'm able to get on and grab
one from Amazon so yeah anyways take
care of you guys I will check in with
you tomorrow bye